1. |
To Those Who Found Rest
01:47
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Our hearts are restless
'Till they find their rest in You [1]
Oh perfect Halcyon
If blood must be spilt
May it be spilt with You [2]
Oh God of Empathy
[1] St. Augustine, Confessions of St. Augustine, Book I, ch. 1
[2] 1 Peter 2:20
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2. |
Pray for the Emperor
04:01
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Behold the agitators
The restless insurrectionists [1]
Convict them for the title
The only name you find so egregious [2]
Justice is blind by nature
But hatred is only merited with open eyes [3]
What is the cause of your animosity?
What
Crime
Did we commit?
The wicked hide their shame
While these men make guilt their banner [4]
I wish that you would mimic
The souls you put to flight
What other crime is punished so incongruently?
Sentence us for our confession
While denial is cursed with acquittal [5]
Arrest for an accusation
On the grounds of words heard through the vine [6]
Pry perjury from men
Your idle sandals show are innocent [7]
Murder calls for the gallows
Martyrs will wear their honor on their necks
You show your own impotence
You know that we’re innocent
Investigate
The mother of villainy
But she’s not the harlot that you perceive
Her detractors
Quickly become her children [8]
Those who hate her soon find themselves
Lying at her breast [9]
We won't be crippled by bitterness
Our weapon drawn is forgiveness
We know well the scent of the dead and dying corpse [10]
But we’re redolent of true life and it’s source [11]
We may be captives in a cell
But captivated by the Author of freedom [12]
Though confined in solitude
We rest in infinite embrace [13]
I wish that you would mimic
The souls you put to flight
I wish you could have their freedom
Barring their chains [14]
Our
Crime
Was
Being named
[1] John Peter Lange, A Commentary on the Holy Scriptures: Matthew, note on Mat 27:22
[2] Tertullian, The Apology, ch. 1
[3] Ibid.
[4] Ibid.
[5] Justin Martyr, The First Apology, ch. 4
[6] Pliny the Younger, Letter to Emperor Trajan
[7] Emperor Trajan, Letter to Pliny the Younger
[8] Tertullian, The Apology, ch. 1
[9] Cyprian, Epistle IX, ch. 4
[10] Tertullian, To the Martyrs, ch. 2
[11] 2 Corinthians 2:15
[12] Tertullian, To the Martyrs, ch. 2
[13] Perpetua, The Passion of Perpetua and Felicitas, ch. 1
[14] Acts 26:29
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3. |
Rome
04:16
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Bite the heel but the body won’t taste death [1]
This beast is the final test I’ll face [2]
I may not be worthy to write my name
Until my hand is severed from the wrist [3]
Though the breath is divided from the chest
May your dirge be
Unified [4]
Pray for me,
That God may give me strength
That I wouldn’t run in vain [5]
Pray for me
That I might bear the Name
Not unjustly, unashamed
Christian [6]
Place a thorn in the side of the ribcage [7]
And feel the pain shoot throughout the limbs [8]
The feet
Will move
Swift to healing
The hands
Bereaved
Will stop the bleeding [9]
Eat me alive
let not a morsel remain [10]
Eat me alive
Let not a morsel remain
Tell the churches that the fate overtaking me flows from God [11]
Don't prevent me from fulfilling my call on the road to Rome [12]
I'm incomplete
My training has just begun [13]
Let me see their teeth
I may be eaten by beasts
But I'll be swallowed by heaven [14]
If I can endure then maybe I can embrace
The title adored by angels
To bear the name means to elevate
The sacred corpus above my body
If my bones are scattered around me
May they become pillars in the church
Pray for me,
That God may give me strength
That I wouldn’t run in vain
Pray for me
That I might bear the name
Not unjustly, unashamed
Christian
[1] Genesis 3:15
[2] Ignatius of Antioch, Letter to the Romans, ch. 7
[3] Ignatius of Antioch, Letter to the Magnesians, ch. 1
[4] Ibid., chapter 14
[5] Polycarp of Smyrna, Epistle to the Philippians, ch. 9
[6] Ignatius of Antioch, Letter to the Romans, ch. 3
[7] 2 Corinthians 12:7
[8] 1 Corinthians 12:26
[9] 2 Corinthians 1:4
[10] Ignatius of Antioch, Letter to the Romans, ch. 5
[11] Ignatius of Antioch, Letter to the Smyrnaeans, ch.11
[12] Ignatius of Antioch, Letter to the Romans, ch. 6
[13] Ignatius of Antioch, Letter to the Ephesians, ch. 1
[14] Ignatius of Antioch, Letter to the Romans, ch. 4
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4. |
Liturgy
02:08
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5. |
Phrygia
03:49
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Oh zealot
You called forth for revival
But your arrogance brought division [1]
The spirit of the prophets
Is subject to the prophets [2]
The will is not eclipsed
Tie a rein around your tongue
Passion can shine as a light
Unbound by hysteria
Our dreams rest hollow [3]
Our steps run aberrant
Your spite tore down the body
But the head tore down the veil [4]
Don’t let your ecstatic gestures
be the obstacle that they can't bear [5]
Call forth that revival
And spur them on to greatness
Don't let your zeal be the cornerstone of stumbling [6]
You deceive the hungry
And make them think that the bread has worms
You scare the lambs
And make them run from the shepherd's voice
You revile your brothers
And ridicule them as if they disdain God
You are a good man [7]
But compose yourself for the sake of the church
Maybe God was speaking through you
But your tone was out of pitch
"Don't despise the prophecies” [8]
But it shouldn't have led to this
[1] Rex D. Butler, New Prophecy and New Visions: Evidence of Montanism in The Passion of Perpetua and Felicitas, 46-47
[2] 1 Corinthians 14:32
[3] Joel 2:28
[4] Hebrews 10:20
[5] Eddie L. Hyatt, 2000 Years of Charismatic Christianity: A 21st Century Look at Church History from a Pentecostal/Charismatic Perspective, ch. 3
[6] Roger Olson, The Story of Christian Theology: Twenty Centuries of Tradition and Reform, 127
[7] Philip Schaff, Henry Wace, et. al. eds., Nicene and Post-Nicene Fathers 2.1: Eusebius: Church History, Life of Constantine the Great, and Oration in Praise of Constantine, “The Church History of Eusebius,” footnote 8 on ch. 16 of book V
[8] 1 Thessalonians 5:20
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6. |
God of Apathy
04:36
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If you care for me, make a pact with blood
I know your eyes have seen us
Every war-torn face, every orphaned son
Has not escaped your notice
If you want to appease our mourning
Enter low into this morbid story
No frivolous act will comfort me
Immanuel, are you a God of Empathy?
If the Word never felt the grave
How could his voice have any weight? [1]
Did you speak to appease the crowds?
Voicing platitudes, maintaining your distance
Sing a eulogy for grief never felt
A cruel front to cover your indifference
I trod on the grapes but drank only water [2]
I hear those adages but we’re sheep led to the slaughter
I
Juxtapose
Your blank-faced icon
With our blood-filled groans
Arms outstretched yet cold and stoic
Don’t fabricate
Your incarnation here
I heard the exiled say that your voice took on flesh [3]
Radiant and glowing, but evidence is showing that appointed time was too good to be true [4]
Because you were always being chased but never seemed to be caught [5]
Slipping and running, docile but cunning you were a spectacle ephemeral and made to look like a man
We should have read the signs, viewed close enough translucent, lucid seeming but a sham to make us think you cared
And the twelve didn’t think it strange that after three years he still ran like a phantom, a ghost ascending into heaven [6]
Descending to your birth, the virgin felt no pain and no lament was heard when they cut your chord [7]
Nails struck through flesh but silence was ensuing alluding they slid through like rain through a cloud [8]
We'll run to the tomb, but never cling to the voice, the breath returns to the lungs that don't have a chest for us to lean on [9]
"O Kurios mou Kai o Theos mou," I long for a wound to touch in your side [10]
Rest above our suffering
Incapable of comforting
Misanthropic deity
Oh, paragon of apathy
You were never there,
You never cared,
Your appearing was just a ploy for saving face
[1] Roger Olson, The Story of Christian Theology: Twenty Centuries of Tradition and Reform, 38
[2] H.E.W. Turner, The Pattern of Christian Truth: A Study of the Relations between Orthodoxy and Heresy in the Early Church, 156
[3] John 1:14
[4] Romans 5:6
[5] John 7:44; 8:59; 10:39
[6] Acts 1:9
[7] The Gospel of Pseudo-Matthew, ch. 13
[8] Acts 8:32
[9] John 13:23
[10] John 20:28
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7. |
God of Empathy
04:37
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Face the sky
And hear
The faint conjecture of angels [1]
Questioning
The song of grief
Of the king dismayed by suffering [2]
Chalice in hand
He throws the cup back [3]
Though like gall it burns the throat
It’s the price he’ll pay to dine with those who hunger [4]
I heard the footsteps
Stepping from the sea to shore [5]
And I saw the winepress
Fill up past
The brim and overflow
Humanity has heard
A song that became an instrument
The melody from heaven descended
And harmonized with my dirge
With one stride he leapt
Into my affliction
With one sip he quenched
The dissonance in me
From the precipice
He descends
For the destitute
He resounds
Existence
Was a cacophony
A murderous discord of mortality and wickedness
But in the noise I heard a cadence
Those footsteps
Euphonic, keeping time
Became the rhythm to the chorus of a symphony
My spite lost its footing
When his heel struck the earth
An arm outstretched to me
Was formed from the adages I had heard
From the precipice
He descends
For the destitute
He resounds
When the Word became flesh
The song of God became an instrument of empathy
He threw the cup back
And swallowed whole the chasm
The separation between my face and the one who faced my pain [6]
Maranatha
[1] 1 Peter 1:12
[2] Matthew 9:36
[3] Luke 22:42
[4] Matthew 26:29
[5] John 21:4
[6] Ephesians 2:14
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8. |
Visio Beatifica
01:34
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9. |
Perpetual
04:20
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The final day has shown her rays
The day of victory
This joy in me climaxes [1]
But it smells like blood to me
Am I a masochist
Shrouded in the guise of a saint?
Today I will be fathered by God
While I leave my child as a dismal orphan [2]
I hear beyond prison gates
Pleading for me to keep
My life, but those voices
Lose all familiarity [3]
Sainthood now beckons me
But I'm still left questioning
If I'll be venerated
By all while hated by my son [4]
Chains are the diadems of the saints [5]
The dead bury themselves [6]
But mine still live
My hands touched the plow [7]
But I still flinch
I was
Given
Orders from above
But will
My compliance
Breed antipathy against
The mother?
The martyr?
The God?
I bare
The name of God
My son
Bears
The name "bastard"
[1] Tertullian, The Passion of the Holy Martyrs Perpetua and Felicitas, ch. 6
[2] Ibid., ch. 2
[3] Ibid., ch. 1
[4] Lynn H. Cohick & Amy Brown Hughes, Christian Women in the Patristic World: Their Influence, Authority, and Legacy in the Second through Fifth Centuries, ch. 2
[5] Polycarp of Smyrna, The Epistle of Polycarp to the Philippians, ch. 1
[6] Matthew 8:22
[7] Luke 9:62
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10. |
Felicity
04:38
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I felt
Your grip loosen around my body [1]
Angels take their hold
Through the arms of a stranger [2]
Your breasts
Still dripped [3]
Filling to the brim the wounds
Of the Son of God [4]
Was your faith in the resurrection so strong you would choose to die? [5]
And let your body fall limp before me
A toppled temple
In the natural eye
But I watched your gaze become transfixed
You beheld hope divine
You moved the blade from the ribs to the side of your throat [6]
I saw a sword, you saw a path to take you home
And though this grief remains
It weeps with admiration
You bestowed
In me
The water in which you were once more baptized [7]
A gift was given though you were taken
Your death bought me my only birth rite
I received
The lineage
Of the royal line of heaven
The blood you shed is my inheritance
In my veins is not a drop of cowardice
You took your final steps
Standing, resolved
And marching, you crushed
The dragon’s head [8]
I watched you climb
Up Jacob's ladder [9]
Angels take their hold
Of my martyred mother [10]
I felt like a still born
While you bore the birth pangs [11]
I passed your knees but fell to taste the dust
Can you raise my head from the grave where you fell?
I fell
Into the hands of the God
Whose face fell upon us
Then I’ll rise to meet you
In the air [12]
[1] Tertullian, The Passion of the Holy Martyrs Perpetua and Felicitas, ch. 5
[2] The Apocalypse of Peter
[3] Tertullian, The Passion of the Holy Martyrs Perpetua and Felicitas, ch. 6
[4] Colossians 1:24
[5] Genesis 22
[6] Tertullian, The Passion of the Holy Martyrs Perpetua and Felicitas, ch. 6
[7] A Treatise on Re-baptism by an Anonymous Writer, ch. 15
[8] Lynn H. Cohick & Amy Brown Hughes, Christian Women in the Patristic World: Their Influence, Authority, and Legacy in the Second through Fifth Centuries, ch. 2
[9] Genesis 28
[10] Luke 16:22
[11] Matthew 24:8
[12] 1 Thessalonians 4:17
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11. |
Flicker
03:48
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Swallow peace and refuge
Estranged and debased
Engulf the bed underneath me [1]
I accept the omen
The odious
A flicker away from eternity [2]
The hand of God
Bestowed
86 years [3]
Unscathed and never harmed
I
Acquiesce
I may
Not sleep
Tonight
Through my
Burning
But through
The pyre
I will
Find my
Halcyon
Covered in ash
Yet bathed in glory [4]
Flames will be felt either way
Whether flames of purging
or flames of agony [5]
Now the cup comes to my lips
First comes the trial then the bliss [6]
These embers feel like rain to me
Falling on my skin [7]
These cinders don’t burn to me
This flesh of mine won't singe
When the coals begins to smolder
My soul will simmer over with joy
Angels will rise beside ash
Carrying the remains of the crucible [8]
The hand of God
Bestowed
86 years
And gave me the hope that I will rise again
Every living breath sings
In anticipation [9]
And I’ll join in harmonizing, though asphyxiated
I watch the Phoenix fly in tandem [10]
With the spotless dove, fluttering in my ribcage [11]
Though we flicker for a single moment
The light of God is our perpetual felicity [12]
[1] The Encyclical Letter of the Church at Smyrna or The Martyrdom of Polycarp, ch. 5
[2] 1 Corinthians 15:52
[3] The Encyclical Letter of the Church at Smyrna or The Martyrdom of Polycarp, ch. 9
[4] My Epic, Yet, “Lower Still”
[5] The Encyclical Letter of the Church at Smyrna or The Martyrdom of Polycarp, ch. 11
[6] Ibid., ch. 14
[7] Ibid., ch. 2
[8] Luke 16:22
[9] Romans 8:19
[10] Clement of Rome, The First Epistle of Clement to the Corinthians, ch. 25
[11] The Encyclical Letter of the Church at Smyrna or The Martyrdom of Polycarp, ch. 16
[12] Revelation 22:5
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12. |
Witness
03:31
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Does the farmer
Weep when he
Plants his seeds?
Does he mourn
as they fall
underneath?
Is the garden
just a tomb
for those dreams?
Or does he smile
at the hope
that he sees?
What is sown is fleeting
What is raised is infinite
Now we groan while reaching
For the day of the Son of Man
We are dead and bleeding
But you are true to what you've said
What is sown believing
In his time will resurrect
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