1. |
Moriah
02:05
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Raise the knife to the heavens
Let it fall where the child is bound
Violence and vengeance revolving [1]
Hesitancy disavowed [2]
Quarantine the plague
Dissipate the dissonance
The great commission:
To speak this final act of vengeance
But which brother? I can’t decide
One pompous and arrogant
The other withered, bastardized [3]
His raised image inverted
He smiles at judgement diverted
His brothers holocaust: [4]
Holy infanticide
[1] René Girard, Violence and the Sacred, translated by Patrick Gregory, (London: Continuum, 2005), 51.
[2] Carol Delaney, Abraham on Trial: The Social Legacy of Biblical Myth (Princeton: Princeton University Press, 2000), 44.
[3] Genesis 21:15.
[4] The word “holocaust” comes from the Greek words holos meaning
“whole” and kaustos “to burn.” Online Etymology Dictionary, “holocaust,” https://www.etymonline.com/word/holocaust.
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2. |
Gabriel
03:31
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Recite, recite [1]
The word eternal
The pre-eminent discourse
The dictum of the dead and the living
Deliver the sacred promise—
The birth pangs from God’s own tongue
Your soul is a sea without a shore [2]
Righteous slave,
You’ve caught the eye of the Lord [3]
Pulled straight from the right side of the mountain [4]
They’ll remember your name [5]
You will speak
And I’ll silence [6]
The bastards, the reprobates [7]
The ones who shut their ears to this decree
The raging oceans [8]
The weeping orphan [9]
Will be calmed by its sound
Galvanize
Dear messenger,
Those who fell asleep
Refine the corrupted decree
Level the mountains
Raise the valleys [10]
A barren garden
Births a miracle—a song of unmatched serenity
Sprouted as a eulogy
But reaped as a dirge
Watch it pierce your soul [11]
Your bride and daughter battle [12]
Black is the ink that’s written
But it dries red [13]
The final answer
To the question all have asked
And yet a question asking:
The response, can you withstand?
You will speak
And be speechless
With awe and dread you’ll bear
The word of God that everyone will hear
The raging oceans
The weeping orphan
Will be calmed by its sound
But not before that deafening wind, overshadowed, has tortured them [14]
Majesty
And terror
Will be a palindrome
Unspeakable its glory
Unspoken its pain
[1] Quran 96:1-3.
[2] Jalālu’l-Dīn Rūmī, Selected Poems of Rumi, (Mineola, New Yok: Dover Publications: 2011) translated by Reynold
A. Nicholson, Dover Thrift Edition, 1.
[3] Luke 1:28.
[4] Quran 19:52.
[5] Luke 1:42.
[6] Ibid., 1:20.
[7] The Book of Enoch, Translated by R.H. Charles (London: Evinity Publishing, 2010) 10:9, Kindle Edition.
[8] Mark 4:39.
[9] Muhammad himself was an orphan, with his father dying before Muhammad’s birth, and his mother dying in his
youth. Raza Aslan, No god but God: The Origins, Evolution, and Future of Islam (Newark: Audible, 2009), chapter
1, 1:07:00. See also Quran 93:6.
[10] Isaiah 40:4.
[11] Luke 2:35.
[12] This is meant to be taken metaphorically and literally. Metaphorically, it refers to the Bride of Christ—the
Church—battling with an offshoot, or a child, of the Abrahamic tradition, namely, the Ulama (the community of
Islamic believers). Yet, this is also a literal reference concerning Muhammad’s wife and daughter. Shortly after the
prophet’s death, raging factions divided the community about who should be Muhammad’s successor, with Aisha
(Muhammad’s wife) and Fatima (Muhammad’s daughter from his first marriage) finding themselves squarely on
opposing sides of a bloody conflict over the matter. Hazleton, After the Prophet, chapters 9-10.
[13] This is meant as both an acknowledgement of the Passion of Christ, as well as a particularly disturbing episode in
early Islamic history. Amidst the initial rumblings of the Shia/Sunni split, the third Caliph, Uthman Ibn Affan, was
assassinated by a mutinous Muslim. It is said that his blood spilt over the Quran he was in the middle of reading.,
Vali Nasr, The Shia Revival: How Conflicts within Islam Will Shape the Future (Newark: Audible, 2013), read by
Fleet Cooper, chapter 2, 39:30.
[14] Genesis 1:4. Also see Muhammad Saalih al-Munajjid, “Who is the ‘Holy Spirit,’ Islam Question & Answer, April
23rd, 2001, https://islamqa.info/en/answers/14403/who-is-the-holy-spirit.
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3. |
Whispers
05:43
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Ineffable
Frozen in beauty
Like a fly caught in amber [1]
I’m transfixed
Suspended between terror and bliss
Barefoot in the cavern I’ve seen [2]
The burning thicket
Consumed and flickering radiate [3]
Only the wisps of its shadows have been seen by the faithless
But the Word in the beginning
may be my—
End
These locutions I hear [4]
The small still voice I can’t—
Bare, I sweat underneath a cacophony
The clanging of bells
the suffocation an angel’s wings [5]
Is this my ascent into sainthood?
Or am I descending into madness?
If I’m a lyre; my chords plucked by God’s own fingers [6]
Then why does my voice sound strangely familiar?
Where does humanity end and divinity begin? [7]
So will you hold me through the night?
As my faith is worn and terror starts to rise
Only madmen hear the words of angels
And this voice of God terrifies me
It terrifies
And my mind convulses with uncertainty
Has there been a breach of autonomy? [8]
Did my forefather—knife raised—have a lapse in his sanity? [9]
Have the demons come in?
Am I possessed by a jinn? [10]
Is the devil himself lurking deep within?
Could it be that the angels will catch me up with their hands? [11]
Could it be I’m the swine for Christ to throw off the mountain? [12]
Suicide may be my only hope
I’ll kill this parasite
Bashing in its wicked host
Concuss the terrible master [13]
I’ll mitigate this disaster
The lineage of seers might end tonight
Is the line between prophet and madman only paper-thin?
So will you hold me through the night?
as my faith is worn
and terror starts to rise
Only madmen hear the words of angels
And this voice of God terrifies me
Cover me
I can’t bear the weight of the miracle [14]
Lift my soul with your embrace
[1] Mark Salzman, Lying Awake, (New York: Random House, 2003), 18, Kindle Edition.
[2] Plato, The Allegory of the Cave, (Enhanced Media, 2017), translated by Benjamin Jowett.
[3] Quran 20:10.
[4] St. Teresa of Avila, The Interior Castle, edited and translated by E. Allison Peers (New York: Sheed & Ward,
1946) 134, Kindle Edition.
[5] The Hadith by Sahih Al-Bukhari, Volumes 1, book 1, Hadith #2, narrated by Aisha (Global Grey, 2017)
https://www.globalgreyebooks.com/hadith-ebook.html.
[6] Montanus, an early charismatic preacher in the 2nd century, became a spectacle when he not only claimed to be a
prophet, but also spoke as God in the first person. “Behold the man [Montanus] is like a lyre, and I strike the strings
like a plectrum. The man sleeps and I wake. Behold! It is the Lord who moves the heart
of [the] man.” Quoted in Roger E. Olson, The Story of Christian Theology: 20 Centuries of Tradition & Reform,
(Downers Grover, IL: InterVasity Press, 1999), 32, Kindle edition.
[7] Lesley Hazleton, The First Muslim: the Story of Muhammad (Newark: Audbile, 2017) read by Deepti Gupta, chapter 8, 3:19:50.
[8] T.M. Luhrmann, R. Padmavati, H. Tharoor, and A. Osei, “Differences in Voice-Hearing Experiences of People with Psychosis,” in The British Journal of Psychiatry, 2015, 43.
[9] Carol Delaney, Abraham on Trial: The Social Legacy of Biblical Myth (Princeton: Princeton University Press, 2000), 14.
[10] Mejnoon is the Arabic word for “crazy,” and is still in use all throughout the Near East. The word’s etymology
traces its root to the word “jinn.” A jinn in Islam is a spiritual entity separate from angels and demons. There are
good jinn and evil jinn. The connotation of the word mejnoon then, is that those who are crazy are those who are
possessed by a spirit. This knowledge is from Dr. Penney, Wheaton’s resident Semitic languages scholar.
[11] Matthew 4:6.
[12] Mark 5:10.
[13] David Foster Wallace, Jamie Sullivan, “This is Water – Full version-David Foster Wallace Commencement
Speech,” May 19th, 2013, video, 22:43, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8CrOL-ydFMI.
[14] The Quran was said to be Muhammad’s sole miracle, given his illiteracy and the Quran’s incomprehensible
beauty. Though some scholars question whether Muhammad was in fact illiterate, I include it here not for its
doubtless historical accuracy, but because it is still widely believed among the Muslim community. See Aslan, No
god but God, chapter 2, 1:53:00.
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5. |
Never Again
03:06
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Terror is the ever-scorching sun
In the fight for our existence
Uprooted,
Cast aside as kindling
Scattered ‘cross the nations
Sprouted forth
From the crags
Our seed
A diaspora
Replanted in the land we lost
Nearly vacant, but trod upon by swine
We’ll sink our roots deep in this earth
A breast flowing rich with honey
There’s no view from nowhere
And from the heights of Zion I can see
Thorns
In my side
Parasitic weeds
You infectious disease
We’ll be the salt of the earth
Terror homegrown will wilt and see
We’ve tilled this desert sand before
Our claimed inheritance [1]
Our eternal home
There’s no view from nowhere
And from the heights of Zion I can see
The depths I’ll go to find refuge
We’ve been pruned for greatness
The nagging guilt you sow will be blotted out
By the shade of our olive trees
We’ll water this land with blood if it means we reap a future
If only to see our children bloom
I refuse to wither
Never again trod on
Never again uprooted
Never again trod on
Never again a victim [2]
[1] Obadiah 17.
[2] The phrase “never again” has become a rallying cry within the Zionist movement, signifying how the Jewish people will never again be left helpless to suffer without the right to fight back. See 4everSsstudent7, “Never Again
– Israel, 60 Years After the Holocaust,” May 1st, 2008, video, 3:29,
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dtG7mJeFZrI&t=111s.
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6. |
Writhe
04:24
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Am I the scorching sun above
Or the child exposed? [1]
Mimicking this wilting weed
My lone shade in the desert
Every drop of hope I had
You drank your fill; excess spills down your beard [2]
The pharaoh, once your oppressor
Now your paragon [3]
Screeching owls circles your gardens [4]
Screaming “blood guilt”
Mass graves fertilize olive trees [5]
Our graves left unwatered [6]
Criticize our modest blossom
While you leach our tongue
Tell us all of your exceeding greatness
Through "small, death-spitting mouths" [7]
Fingers rise to flick the locusts [8]
That you resurrect
Mother Hagar smiles and wipes her eyes
God has seen us writhe in dust
Our thirst will be sated
Our keys, kept, will open the floodgates [7]
[1] Genesis 21:15-20.
[2] It is difficult to overstate how large of a role the fight over water plays in the tensions between the Palestinians
and the Israelis. It is often the case that the Palestinians unjustly have their groundwater confiscated by the Israelis.
Space does not permit a fuller discussion than this; for more details see Troubled Waters—Palestinians Denied Fair
Access to Water: Israel Occupied Palestinian Territories, (London: Amnesty International Publications, 2009),
https://www.amnestyusa.org/pdf/mde150272009en.pdf.
[3] It is interesting to note that in the Quran, the pharaoh is the archetype of evil. “…the Koran’s most important
villain.” Sachiko Murata and William C. Chittick, The Vision of Islam, (St. Paul, MN: Paragon House, 1994), 32,
Kindle Edition.
[4] Though there are only mere fragments of Arabic poetry available to us from the pre-Islamic era, one of the
common motifs of that poetry was the idea of the thirsty owl. The mythology of the owl was that it would screech
during the night, acting as an omen, signaling that a wrongful death has been committed, and that bloodguilt must be
avenged. See T. Emil Homerlin, “Echoes of a Thirst Owl: Death and Afterlife in Pre-Islamic Arabic Poetry,” in
Journal of Near Eastern Studies, Vol. 44, No. 3, July 1985.
[5] Mass graves were a tragic reality in the Palestinian exile. Elias Chacour recounts of when he discovered one as a
child, playing soccer in a field, only to find a welted, decomposing severed arm shooting up out of the ground.
Chacour, Blood Brothers, chapter 5, 1:34:00.
[6] Watering gravesites was a literal practice in pre-Islamic Arabia, the idea being that the ghosts of the departed were
thirsty either literally, or on occasion, metaphorically for justice. See Homerlin, “Echoes of a Thirsty Owl,” 183.
[7] Elias Chacour, Blood Brothers, chapter 6.
[8] In an uproar against the Israeli occupation, the Palestinians engaged in two widespread revolts against the Israelis, known as the first and second Intifada (1987 & 2000). The term "Intifada" is an Arabic word roughly translating to "the shaking off," with the connotation being that of flicking off a bug.
[9] During my time in Palestine, I met with several Palestinian families who kept as heirlooms the keys to the homes
they were driven out of. To this day can be seen all throughout the West Bank imagery of the key, symbolizing the
hope to one day return to their homes.
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7. |
Rung
05:19
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Oh Bethlehem,
My hope, my home
Ring softly for me
My mind impaired [1]
Your bells declare
A love that teaches me
No room in the inn
Bring them here, let them in
Give our guests the rest they need
The arms of the church
are the haven reserved
For the weary the hand of God receives
But why has the stain glass shattered?
Golden hues turn to red
We’ll grant a place of refuge
But must we give our shelter to the dead? [2]
Gifted gold in a chest become brass bullets fired at my breast
The choir angels aghast
Wise men bearing gifts
Morph into gunmen with white-knuckles fists
Is this redemption for us?
For 40 days, we’ll fast [3]
While skies darken black [4]
Hell rains on us
And for a tenth of those [5]
I’ll watch my family hunger
To see my body consumed into the earth
I hear them scream
One to another
“We will turn this birthplace of ‘god’
Into a grave for my godless brother”
This silent night is drenched in gunfire
The birth of chaos, a soundtrack for my second christening [6]
I hear them scream
One to another
“We will turn this birthplace of ‘god’
Into a grave for my godless brother”
I ran, I fell
I heard the bell
Ringing softly one last time
The angels lift my soul rejoicing
Isaac, Ishmael, will you weep for me?
Caught in the crossfire
Between what is
And what should be
Two brothers
On either side of the Church
Collided violently into me
The marriage of fear and hate
The death of peace
The bell tolling for solace
Still sings for me
The star of Bethlehem climbed every rung to the sky [7]
The virgin births a stillborn
The sacrifice is found
[1] In 2002, the Israeli Defense force pushed back several dozens of Palestinian militants into the ancient Church of the Nativity (the alleged birthplace of Christ). The Palestinian militants were given sanctuary by the priests and monks there for roughly 40 days. Tragically, one of few casualties of the entire event was the mentally handicapped bell ringer of the church, who was shot and killed by an Israeli sniper by mistake.
“Bullet Quiets Church’s Bell,” Chicago Tribune, April 5th, 2020, https://www.chicagotribune.com/news/ct-xpm-
2002-04-05-0204050331-story.html.
[2] The caved grotto underneath the church (called Cave of the Innocents, a memorial site containing the bones of the
children two years old and younger killed by King Herod in Bethlehem) was repurposed as a temporary resting
place for the bodies of the Palestinian fighters who were shot and killed.Joshua Hammer, A Season in Bethlehem: Unholy War in a Sacred Place, (New York: Free Press, 2003), 229,
Kindle edition.
[3] The Siege at the Church of the Nativity lasted roughly 40 days. “Bullet Quiets Church’s Bell,” Chicago Tribune, April 5th, 2020, https://www.chicagotribune.com/news/ct-xpm-
2002-04-05-0204050331-story.html.
[4] Luke 23:44.
[5] According to one source, the bellringer's corpse was left in the streets to rot for four days before being permitted to be taken away and buried. Joshua Hammer, A Season in Bethlehem: Unholy War in a Sacred Place, (New York: Free Press, 2003), 215,
Kindle edition.
[6] Often times in the ancient church, martyrdom was consider a "second baptism" in one's own blood. See Mary Hope Griffin, Martyrdom as a Second Baptism: Issues and Expectations for the Early Christian Martyrs, 2002.
[7] “On Christmas Eve, the little one he would kill a few days later, was a star in the Christmas pageant. Maybe
Christos wanted to make her one forever. That seemed to be behind his thinking, because that was the reason he
gave the police: ‘God needed her, to put her in a star.’” Carol Delaney, Abraham on Trial, 41.
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8. |
One
01:39
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Wahad [1]
[1] The Arabic word for "one."
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9. |
Antithesis
05:18
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This vision lies before me
The urge to murder the soul
This foreign entity
A stranger inescapable
A face so unfamiliar
Yet shown in every wayward smile
Behold the lord of the flies:
The impulse swarming in my chest
Undulate inconsistently
Wavering sporadically to no resolve
The fate laid out before me slipping away ephemeral, tentative
I am not the author of my wayward dreams
Save mercy for the guilty
Ever-present help in my time of need
The Accuser will acquit me
I hurl my curses to you
Yet find them damning me
The mirror image that taunts me
The scathing spite that I know
Cancerous contaminant
Ravaging my righteous soul
Despite antipathy,
I see now my dependence
Though I invite your overthrow
I don't beckon your severance
Your audience gives me comfort
That my will has been undermined
If my charity has been usurped
Then damn forgiveness; I'm justified
I am not the author of my wayward dreams
Save mercy for the guilty
I’ll call upon the universal scapegoat
Ever-present help in my time of need
The Accuser, will acquit me
I’ll wear my shame underneath a lambskin
You are the embodiment
of all my avarice
Archetype of my resentment
You are malevolence in me
“Incarnation is a myth” [1]
[1] Youssef Ziedan, Azazeel (London: Atlantic Books, 2009) translated by Jonathan Wright, 302.
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10. |
Ululate
03:44
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The sun sets; peace glistens as a memory
Bludgeoned and victimized, I’ve come to devise
The dawn of an era of bloodshed
The undead find themselves infected by a plague
Eye for an eye
Reciprocate, agonize
Half-blind, myopic
I’ll terrorize
The one that I think is the monster:
The guiltiest of all
I dream of drinking vengeance
Draining their blood guilt dry
Drown me, catharsis
But I wake to find my seething
Poured onto innocence
Drowning in rage
But the blows that I dealt
Disfigure another face
The blade that I crafted
To repay my suffering
Now plunged into a surrogate
The blood poured out
Encircles the victim
With a crimson halo
Rage fostered by devils
But poured out on a saint
Give me immunity, wipe away this plague
Ululate
Sacrifice, fill me with meekness as the blade sinks deeper
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11. |
Thicket
03:30
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Amidst brothers at war
The sound of a cease fire captivates
Remove the tunicate
Let red run slow
Restraints unshackled
The taste of blood will be known
The insatiable vice
Eye for eye
Can’t be denied
Violence beckons a body
To sink its teeth into
Past the trembling hands
A surrogate comes
Gather the kindling
The dead for the living
Bound alive, my hatred on display
The innocent beast
Becomes the ravenous feast
At the banquet of vitriol and revenge
And as we swallow,
The bitterness follows
The taste for blood finally subsides
Stricken by horror as I strike the offering
Rise up, take the knife from the father
Hand in hand, together we’ll slaughter it
The thicket becomes an ellipse
This ravenous anger, wholly eclipsed
Fratricide drains from its body
Not a drop remains of animosity
Sink your teeth into the ram in the thicket
And behold your brother’s smile
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